Update

I have not done a very good job updating lately! As most of you know, my last PET scan showed a clean bill of health. The cancer is completely gone!

I received a phone call from Kim and her words exactly were, "your PET was completely normal!" Normal?? The first time in two years... Normal?! My heart felt like it was about to burst out of my chest.

I fought for a long time to find out what was wrong with me. I didn't understand why at 21 I felt like I was 40. I had every ailment known to man that comes with old age: massive back pain, reflux that was out of control, fatigue, and the list goes on... I just knew something wasnt right and it ended up taking a toll on my relationships, and especially my marriage.

It doesn't look too good when you've been in bed all day and there are still dirty dishes in the sink because your back wouldn't last long enough for you to get them into the dish washer. I became the ultimate couch potato leaving Harrison with everything to do around the house. He never could understand but I KNEW something was not right. And now: normal...

Just because everything was clear didn't mean we were finished though. I had 15 rounds of radiation treatment to follow up for precautionary purposes. I didn't want to hear that after chemo. I was so ready to rest and begin my healing process but then it was time to fight again. My dad asked me, "Oh you can get back to it! We might need another cancer party, do you have just one more cancer party in you? Just to get you going again?" "I'm just so tired." Was my response.

As soon as I got off the phone with Him, Harrison saw the tears welting up. He grabbed me, kissed my forehead, and layed my head in his chest so I could just sob. "What's wrong?" He asked. "I'm tired. I just want to be done. I don't want to do this anymore." I cried. "Oh, baby you have to keep going. You can do this."

For the next 3 weeks, my support system was unreal. We broke out the calendar and everyone was eager to sign up for what days they wanted to take me. my father in law signed up for a lot of them and I thoroughly enjoyed our talks back and forth hearing old stories and getting to know sides of him I didn't know existed. He's a tough guy.. God has molded him over the years and he had some incredible stories to share. Thank you, Bing! I enjoyed our time together :)

My mom signed up for an entire week and I loved spending so much time with both she and my sister. We loved being in Columbia everyday because we had a plethera of food options. (Go figure!) Everyday we would take off to the doctor and then go for the cravings! Yes, I think we may have gained another 5 pounds that week but we had such a good time!

My last week of treatment was special because Harrison got to take me everyday. I was giddy to "show him the ropes," and let him see what I did everyday. As always sweetheart, I loved my time with you!

I am truly blessed and loved by so many. It's overwhelming to reminisce on all of my friends and family who were there in a heart beat to do anything they could to help out.

I was perfectly capable of driving myself but the support I had in knowing that NO ONE wanted me going by myself, not EVER (not even to a doctors appointment!) did so much for me emotionally. Thank you Harrison, Bing, Ashea, Aunt Melinda, Rebecca, Ashby, and mom. Having someone with me everyday helped me keep going. Thank you for doing the little things. Although small, they are paramount!

Yes, I am ALL DONE! When Kim told me not to come back and see her for 6 weeks, I really didn't know what I was going to do with myself. My next appointment is couple weeks away. I'll get my port flushed and I'm not sure if we'll be scheduling the next PET or not. One thing we will do though: gossip! I love my time with my nurse practitioner as well ;)

The medication is still a work in progress. The reflux is getting under control but I still have a very hard time getting to sleep and with the weight gain came restless legs... GREAT!

No I haven't had any great epiphanies which is why I haven't posted but I figured it was time to let everyone know what has been going on!