One Flesh

"And the two shall become one flesh."

I don't know where you are in your life or what situation you're in but I am married. Next to God, Harrison is the most important thing to me. Priority #1: God. Priority #2: Harrison. I have to fight to keep him second in my life. I have to fight to make sure that nothing interferes with this.

I have learned something recently: The grass is always going to be greener on the other side. Thanks to Adam and his lovely wife, Eve, it's our human nature to be tempted by sin. So if we already know this about ourselves, why do we even try to take a look on the other side?

I refuse to watch Nicholas Sparks movies, and I refuse to maintain contact with any "past flings." These things like romance movies and ex boyfriends will give me butterflies, and make me want what I don't have. I have no problem admitting this because I know that I am a sinner and I know that the grass is going to always look greener on the other side and I know that I am going to be tempted by things.... Things other than my husband. So knowing this about myself, I need to use it to protect my sinful nature from becoming tempted.

Marriage is not an easy thing. I knew that going into it and not even a year in, I can already vouch for that! I made a commitment though and I need to do everything I can to protect my marriage.

So we know that we are always going to want what someone else has and we know that marriage is hard... Lets use these facts to the best of our knowledge. God says the heart can be deceiving and he says to guard your heart. I love it when real life proves God's word to be true :) because I can vouch to those things too! And I know several people who can do the same.

Whatever your #2 priority is, do whatever you can to protect it. Don't put yourself in situations that make you want what you don't have. 

Another thing... I've worked hard to make sure every other relationship I have does not interfere with my marriage. "Man shall leave his mother and father and cling to his wife." That means that not even our parents can come before our relationship. Our friendships, siblings, finances, nothing.

Its been a learning experience maintaining my marriage as my second priority. My whole family: mom, dad, step mom, in laws, aunts, grandparents, etc.. Wanted to completely take over and fix everything when I was diagnosed with hodgkins. It's hard, but that's not their place anymore. It was hard for me to try and respectfully say, "Thank you but no thank you." It is now Harrisons job to take care of me. Its been hard for my family to take on their new positions as my supporters and let someone else step in, take control, and keep me safe... But they have been the best. Thank you :)

Making these sacrifices: not letting my own mother take care of me when I got sick, not watching romance movies, and breaking off every past relationship that was more than just friends.... Those are not easy sacrifices. I have to be obedient to God and put Harrison before all of those things though. I have to trust that those are the best decisions because God says so.. And He has pulled through like always :)

Even though it's hard, I am so happy and at peace in my marriage. I LOVE my husband and fall in love with him more and more each day. In the midst of all of our struggles that seems impossible but nothing is impossible for our God and that is why I have decided to make hard sacrifices in an effort to put my marriage in God's hands. Again, I love it when God's word proves itself to be true!