Blessings

Since I have been home, I have been crafting my little heart away. Every great idea I see on pinterest has come to life in our house and Harrison is about to go crazy! Eventually I ran out of things to make for myself and for our house so I had the fun idea to create an online boutique through facebook. I have been selling quite a bit of things and it's been fun having something to do. I also love catching up with friends and family when I deliver their items.

I then came up with an even more fun idea, to hold a craft show at our house. We spent the day cleaning up and cooking things. My friend came over and helped me decorate the house with all of the things I had made. I was a little dissapointed that a very large number of people were unable to come. I probably had about ten people show up, but we still had a very good time!

I love zoning out in my craft room and making things while I listen to sermons on audio. I love the social aspect that comes along with delivering my items. And I loved the idea of a ladies night at my house. This is why I craft. I didn't start this up because we needed money, if that was the case then my prices wouldn't be so low! I was not at all expecting the turn out that I had the night of my show. A pile of money landed in our laps because of that event. I wasn't expecting that at all. I was just looking forward to a girls night!

A couple of days later I was in the kitchen fixing myself a midnight snack.... something that has become a regular routine. My mind started going. Because of my cancer, I have switched my major and I'm doing what I love to do by tutoring biology and making crafts. I feel rich. I feel so wealthy. Now, we can stand back and look at the big picture of my situation. Harrison and I do not own our home, our vehicles are 10 years old, we don't have a large income and we are now in the tens of thousands of dollars in debt due to all of my medical bills. That doesn't sound very rich at all!

I'm amazed at how living as a Christian is so upside down from the "world" in a very large number of ways. I mean, listen to myself! "because of my cancer, all of these wonderful things have happened." and "I feel rich." When we are clearly broke!

I was standing in the kitchen and I started to look around. We live in a beautiful home and I have gotten to spend a lot of time there decorating it with all of my crafts and all of my time that I am there.  Again, I am there all day because of my cancer. I get to stay home everyday while my husband works to keep the roof of our beautiful home above our heads. Then my mind started wandering some more and I started to think about Harrison. Oh, my soul when I get to thinking about him. Obviously he is a good provider. The way he takes care of me is mind blowing. He hasn't missed one doctors appointment, surgery, or treatment. While I'm on the oporating table or in the recliner receiving my treatment, he sits and waits for hours in a hard back chair.

Not only does he make me feel supported, cared, and provided for, he also makes me feel beautiful. As I slowly gain more and more weight, and slowly loose more and more hair, it becomes devistating for me. Then there's Harrison... I become bigger and balder every time I look in the mirror, but to him I'm no less beautiful.

The more I started thinking about this, the bigger the tears started to swell up. All of a sudden I was sitting on the kitchen floor with my head in my hands, crying hysterically. "I am so blessed. I am so blessed."

I'll leave you with this:

Mark 8:35 "For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it."

Mark 10:31 "But many who are first will be last, and the last first."

Mark 10:43-44 " Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all."



I am living proof of these verses. I don't say these things, and tell everyone about all of our blessings and "I feel rich" because I want to brag or put myself on a pedistal. It is absolutely evident that God has been %100 faithful and true to His words that I have posted above. I am living proof of that and He needs to be glorified. I want to share with everyone God's faithfulness in our lives so that maybe someone will see that He would be faithful in theirs as well.